Sunday, July 18, 2010
blogged @8:45 PM
I'm going crazy, really going crazy. I couldn't even control my emotions now, esp rite in front of my family. I know a lot of people out there are supporting and encouraging me to walk out of this tgt, but I can't. I JUST CAN'T! I knew that i've promised most of you that i will be ok, i will be alright... however it just comes back. Today, i couldn't took it and let out my frustration, cried in front of my family in person which i hardly do so. I couldn't take it anymore..
I want it to end, i want this to end, i want to walk out of my zone, but i really can't! I woke up in the morning and read a book about how you look things at different angle in life. I turned to the page on "happiness is priceless". After reading the book, tears immediately flow down my cheeks. I really need it badly... happiness... so long.. it's been so long since i've felt it. It just gets harder each day. I knew i've caused a lot of pain to people who cares for me, esp my parents. But believe me guys, hurting the ppl i love the most is the last thing i wanna to do. =((( end of the post.
