My mommy was part of the gang, alright?

Culprits for the day

Me and my cake (made by ting ting and babe)

I wish to stay like this always..

pretty pretty flowers!

Love you baby <3>Photos are in random position

On the 27th, was intending to celebrate our 9th month anni and my 18th birthday, however there's another surprising awaiting for me later on. Baby came over to my house and passed me the flowers. It is really and beautiful and i love it lots! Next, we went to vivo to celebrate and we planned to have dinner at white dog's cafe. I actually want to drink with baby at vivo before going home, but then he told me he need to go home early cos his mother wants him back early. *hint #1 for the surprise* Furthermore, he kept sms-ing this person and don allow me to see or secretly sms-ing tt person, Oh well.. dinner was fab! Love the soft shell crab. Left the place at 6pm and baby said he will send me home. All the while he kept sms-ing, i know there must be something cos when he is with me, he will leave his time for me and ignore others. When reached my house bus stop, he said he needa use my toilet.

We walked towards my blk and i saw the windows are open but all lights were off, something was up! Even the metal gate of my house were opened damn wide, i certainly knew my parents won't do tt. I opened the door..... *POP* My friends.. beloved friends and mommy were standing there, with balloons and cake that they made themselves, they planned a surprise birthday party for me! My mommy and baby were in it too. Gosh.. i am really touched. No matter how many times i have thanked them, but then.. i still think it is not enough. They decorated the house when i was out with baby. It was nicee.. at that point of time, i felt happiness. =)

After eating session, chat for a while and we decided to go out for a while. Too bad babe and ting ting can't join us. Intending to play bowling or pool, however too many ppl liao. So we decided to drink, scotch and vodka.. with sprite and 7up. And gosh, was drunk. Made a fool out of myself. Sincerely apologize to my friends about it. All i know was that i wanna drink, drink till the point i will stop thinking about the unhappiness. I so wanna get drunk.

I am not happy.. nt at all. Oh well.. Thanks for the surprise party, mommy, baby, babe, ting ting, willie, mak, yu song and wei xian. I've actually felt happiness at the point of time and i wished time will just stop there. kudos to u all! =)


OH MY HOLY GOD!!!! When i opened a rubbish chute just now, i saw a cockroach!!!! It saw me and i saw it, we were both stunned. O.O I quickly took the bag tt i am throwing, threw it on the cockroach and slammed the door as hard as possible. Felt relieved and also a pang of sadness for the cockroach. It crawled all the way up to the fourth storey, however because of me, it fell all the way down to the first storey. Or... it could be another way round, it is climbing down from the highest level and i've actually made its wish come true, to get to the first level. LOLOL...






Pardon me for not updating my blog frequently. Well, basically i am gonna blog about the far east trip with babe. On 17th of june, wed, i've decided to drag babe out to acc me to do some shopping. I needa buy a pair of covered shoes. Met her near her house and bus-ed down to far east by taking the bus 700. Decided to buy a pair of shoes after walking ard for 10 to 15 mins, as u can see the shoe shown on the pic above. =) Simply love tt shoeeeeeee!

I felt like buying stockings and some formal skirts/dress as well, so we proceed on to taka. However on the way to take, our stomach began to growl. Sigh, guess it is food time. Had tokoyaki and i seriously wanna comment on something siol. They saw babe so pretty and sexy, and decided to gave her more fish flakes. T.T And the prawn tokoyaki i've ordered, the filling which is the prawn was damn smalllllll.. machiam like shrimps liao. Grr, cheat my feelings and money. After eating, we walked around and decided to go to Wisma. Man, when there's sales, it means there's crowd. *suffocating* Tho we walked for about 20 mins, i didn't manage to buy any stocking, so we went back to taka, and yep, i managed to buy one at a particular shop. The hats are niceeee too. =)

We walked all the way to hereens and shop around. Bought a white pants for 40 dollar( i am must be crazy!) LOLS. Rested for a while and began to take photos. Lots and lots of laughter throughout the photo taking session. Dinner at The Cathay. Forgot what is the shop name liao, cos all i did was to eat nia. Hehe! Went to buy eclair after dinner for babe's mom and then trained home. Took some more photos. Sigh.. i miss my babe now. Love ya, sweetie~

I'm super uber irritated, sad, confused and angry with myself now. Life is full of ups and downs, i know and i understand. I suck at expressing myself.. i suck at i don understand myself.. i suck at a lot of things and ya, my life is full of sucky parts. I'm lost.. lost abt what i should do, what shall i do to make things rite? Live for myself or others? I wanna get out of here, start somewhere new. I seriously hate here. I SO WANNA LEAVE! I don understand myself so i don expect ppl to understand me. There are so many things going thru my mind and i am so angry and pissed with myself on why i can't express it out, even if i do, it end up another way.. which means i express wrongly. OMG, why am i so stupid?! How can a stupid person like me ever get to live in this world?

I wished i wasn't born at all. In tt way, u guys have one less idiot fighting for ur oxygen. I'm really exhausted till the point i don feel like going on..

So disappointed. Almost 6 years of friendship.. looks like.. both of us went thru thick and thin tgt, but always end up standing by each other's side. This time round, will it be the same? I am trying my best to understand, put myself in her shoes and ur shoes.. but me? Who is going to themselves in my shoes. I know it's selfish of my to say tt. I am tired, buddy, yes i am. Baby and babe said correctly, things happen for a reason. Now what i am hoping is that, if we could go back to the past and change it, in this way u and i will not be hurt. We are friends... i don wish for u to sms me when she is not around, there's nth to hide. In my life.. i have three best friends, however it seems like, i only left with two. Can't describe the feeling i am going thru now, all i know it hurts. =(



Boo hoo~ My second and third are injured. I did something really stupid just now. Was trying to change the blade for the razor, however i used too much force and it sliced off my skin and meat. Bleeding profusely now. Called my mom and she use cotton wool with Dettol to clean my wound. Damn painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T At first was trying to push out the blade, then it suddenly came out and slice my finger, i was stunned and look at my finger..from pinkish meat to red blood oozing out from my finger... argh!!!!!!!!! I hope i won't kena any infection.. cos the purpose of changing the blade as it was a lil bit rusty. Sigh....bad luck! Pls stop bleeding now!

Went for a dance workshop which is held at....... i forgot what is the community centre however, it is in pioneer. Yep, with babe too! It was totally cool despite the fact that i've stopped dancing from 5.30pm to 7.30pm due to the fact that my energy from 100% dropped down to 25%. Was freezing and starving while resting. Wished Benny happy birthday, but then i realised that i've sent to the wrong person? The other party and i were confused throughout the whole convo, so the last sms i sent him was " are you benny from rp?" and he said no, and i don bothered to reply tt so called "benny". Oh well. LOLOLS.

Neway, back to dancing... Reggae is the best! woots! The only dance movements that i can rmb the most. The rest was like bits and pieces. Haha. Ya, i have poor memory, u know? Grrr! And fiy, the salsa instructor was HOT! U can hear the guys went " Ooooo, wow...etc" Typical guys! Met baby boy at jurong point with babe to have dinner tgt. We spent 20mins to 30mins to find where that bloody pizza hut was. Chicken, end up having mee goreng at FEAST. After dinner, train-ed back with baby boy. Haha, poor him. *U guys wouldn't wanna what i did to him* Not rape la! Grrr! =)

My toe is swollen, bet must be the shoes that causes it to hurt like hell. I couldn't sleep due to the pain so i sms-ed baby to tell him tt my toe is damn pain and couldn't sleep. JUst nice, he was to abt to sms me cos he couldn't sleep. What can we say, telepathy! Loves~! <3